Live for 2day

For some time now I have been listening to a lot of 3 Doors Down and I ran across a lot of good songs by them... But this one simply is... Awesome! And the album cover is just so "WOW".

3 Doors Down - Live For Today

It's just a great "open your eyes" song... The kind of song that kicks you in the head and yells at you "live your life god damn it"!

I really can correlate to the song...

"Show me the road and I will find my own
You build the bridges and I'll burn them down."

This is just so "I'll follow my own way, not yours"/"I'll live my life the way i want to"...

Even the "while heroes ride again" (In the entire context "You're always hiding, throwing up your hands/while heroes ride again.") tells the story of how vanity and ego has taken over. What do you want? Do you want to "act out and pretend your mighty"? Or would you rather be one of the heroes? Most people (I have seen it) chose to just "throw up there hands" than to just do something... Sad...

"I'm taking chances in the here and now."

"I'll take the chance before the chance has gone."

Just seems to push you (or maybe just me) to risk it... I'd rather risk it and fall than to just let life pass me by... Try, get knocked down and get back up again!

How will you know what future holds for you if you refuse to trail it. If you are given a chance, take it, "you never know when it will be your last".

"Another day and yet another's done,
spending the life living within the past."

Don't ever live in your past, always look up for a better tomorrow!

"The clock is running. Make the most of today. Time waits for no man. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it is called the present." (Alice Morse Earle)

"Yesterday is History,
'tis so far away --
yesterday is Poetry,
'tis Philosophy --

Yesterday is Mystery --
Where it is today --
While we shrewdly speculate
Flutter both away"

Wow. So many things you can say about this single fraze...

"We'll never know it When we run out of time until it's all over with
and there'll be nowhere to run."

Make the best out of "NOW" before you reach "TO LATE".

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We all regret the past, we all wish to go back and fix some of the mistakes of our past, but we can't so why spend our time thinking "what if?" because it's just wasted time in which you might get a 2nd chance. 

Learn from the past, Don't live in it. Build your future, don't wait for it to overwhelm you.

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Remember yesterday. Imagine tomorrow. But live today.

Don't give up! I know I won't!

There she goes

And now I'm back where i began... Love...

Weird how all these songs put you through all these different emotions... You'd think you have more control over yourself.

Single minded obsession... You see the object of your desire... and this goes through your mind...



Dose not happen to you? Well... You don't know what your missing...

When the object of my desire is "Racing through my brain", "Pulsing through my veins", "Chasing down my lane", my brain shuts down, my body goes numb and i feel hungry (at least that's what I think... It's really confusing)... The last one's a bit bizarre but still interesting...
"She calls my name, pulls my train. No one else could heal my pain"...
"And I just can't contain this feeling that remains"...

How did butterflies get in my stomach?

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This song goes hand in hand with "Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me", clearly.

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Not much to say about this one. Song says it all...

Happy Hour!

Weird how a person can go from love to pain to regret to the chinn up emotion (dunno how to call it) and to joy...

It's a never ending circle ;)... Tomorrow I'll be down again... And I'll be emo till i listen to some good "chin up" music XD!

Ahh... Can't be emo on happy hour!

Enjoy Chumbawamba - Tubthumping (think i spelled it right)



Just grab a Whiskey drink, and then a Vodka drink. And then some Lager drinks, and a few Cider drinks. Start singing songs that remind you of the good times, and the songs that remind you of the better times! Now don't you feel better? Or worse depending on how drunk you are ;).

At one point you find yourself pissing the night away :P. "Oops, i fell in the rose bush. OWCH! Don't cry for me, next door neighbor".

You piss someone off and you get knocked down, but you get up again and say "your never gonna keep me down"! Think you should have sat down and not said anything. Well... At least your not emo anymore ;).

But now really this is the perfect chin up/have fun song. Can you, can anyone possibly hate on this song? Doubt it.

Grab a drink, laugh it off and do some stupid s*** if it makes you happy. But watch out not to end like this guy... "I got a feeling" that this is SO going to happen... 

EDIT 23 Feb. 2010: I just found a "story" in this song as well (Now it's shocking even me). Actually I found the story last night while I was just standing in bed, looking at the sealing after i had a short chat with "the one"... Not referring to Jesus or God if it's that what your thinking...

The female voice is telling most of the story.

Bizarrely what i read in the "story" was a romance between the female character and the person that she sings about, to be more specific "Oh Danny Boy" and "Next door neighbor". You can see the male character in the clip standing at one side of the table apparently alone (Not really. The female character is standing at the table too) wearing a pair of black gassers with thick borders. The story starts out with him trying to gain confidence threw the words "We'll be singing. When we're winning. We'll be singing". The "I get knocked down part" represents refusal, while "But I get up again" is the "I'll try again" and "chin up" thing. "Oh Danny Boy, Danny Boy, Danny Boy" is the female character trying to "cheer up" the male character.
"He drinks a whiskey drink
He drinks a vodka drink
He drinks a lager drink
He drinks a cider drink"
Hard. Ether "Drown sorrow in booze", "Booze will help me gain MORE confidence" or "This will cheer me up... For now".
"He sings the songs that remind him
Of the good times
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the better times"
This one is easy. Did you never try to cheer up yourself by singing a "happy song"? I did... And it sort of works...
"You're never Gonna keep me down" is the "No matter what you say I'm still gonna try again" thingy (and that's what I will do :P).
"Don't cry for me
Next door neighbor..." is the female voice trying to tell the already drunk (or halfway drunk) male character not to try or cry anymore. Bla bla bla. Don't listen to her, just keep trying!

And it all seems to repeat in a bizarre fashion... Think he had a bit to much to drink...

Make it better

In truth everybody hurts sometimes... And personally i think this song helps a whole lot when you feel hurt/abandoned/betrayed (or anything else that is negative)...



No mater how down you may feel this song makes everything better. It tells you that you are really not alone, no mater how you look at it, you are not alone, not in pain, not in sorrow, not in joy... there will always be a person you will be able to talk/correlate to.

Personally it did help me when i felt knocked down by life.

"I get knocked down, but i get up again! Your never gonna keep me down!"

This post is so short just because there is actually no need to explain it. It stands for itself.

A new beginning

I mede up my mind to make this blog while I was listening to the song "REM - Losing my Religion"... I started to read the comments and see 1 comment that simply pulled me in. I'm not a troll, not a big commenter on YouTube, but i felt like i had to say something!

The comment: "what is this song about someone tell me please" by tamodalekoodmora

Being the artist that i am *a lot of modesty* i just had to go: "don't ask people to explain a song to you ... it's as if you ask an abstract artist what he's expressing in his work ...

The idea is not for you to see what the artist wants you to see ... but rather to see what you feel ... the sensations YOU get from the song ... you can ask what the song is about but in the end someone will tell you there perception of it ...

now tell us ... what is the song about to you ;)"

From this comment of mine it all went really... Well it's kinda hard to say this in words... It went something like "Awwwwwww"...

tamodalekoodmora: "to me-it is about some unhappy love i asume and the person is in a great deal of pain, other ppl say it is about religion and god,,,so,,,i dunno,,,great song tho:))U are right about perception :)"

kashmira1: "@tamodalekoodmora
apocal.... is correct, these words meant nothing to me!
I've been a fool in love & now every word makes sense=
"Oh No,I've said too much!
I haven't said enough!......

JUST a DREAM!......."

kashmira1: "@apocalips9
Just thanks for what u wrote! It hit home, nice to spot your comment.
Hence MY 'perception',as much as it pains me is Happiness don't work both ways!"

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Now. I felt that i need to say something here. And the 500 characters from YouTube are not enough. So that's what i am doing here :D.

kashmira1, you can't even bare to imagine how like your story my own is.

I too fell in love (in a quite foolish way) with a close (an I mean really close) person. It started out only as a simple crush and ended up in almost obsession. For 14 February (Whoop-Dee-Do) i ask her out for just a beer (don't ask), I got her a Edelweiss flower (Thought it's a bit more... I don't know what i was thinking... Rare, Endangered flower=More symbolic) and at one point I admitted that I loved her... For over 1 and a half years now (don't ask)... And she just goes into shock going "wow" every now and then (saying nothing else)... She told me (after she got back to RL)that she saw me more as a brother than anything else and that she just can't get close to anyone at the moment... Since then she has been avoiding me (at least that's how i see it)...

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Now let's see what I feel when i listen to this song...



"Oh, life is bigger
It's bigger than you" - To me says "You can't even imagine how big my love towards you is"
"And you are not me" - "You don't share my feelings" *sob*
"The lengths that I will go to" - "the things I'd do for you"
"The distance in your eyes" - I get lost in her eyes (start dreaming/thinking).
"Oh no, I've said too much" - I lost a friend to those words "I love you" and would rather go back...
"I set it up" - I realize it's my fault.

"That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight" - "Not sure if I should give you room/let go or push on" and "Should i tell the world or keep it to myself (since it might not happen)"
"I'm losing my religion" - Change of hart/personality.
"Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it" - I want to be with her, but I don't know if it will happen (it needs to be from both sides).
"Oh no, I've said too much"
"I haven't said enough" - Just that. I only said half of what is going on inside my soul.
"I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try" - I'm seeing/hearing that person in my sleep, when i close my eyes.

"Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions" - "I mute when I'm around you now. While alone I try to find the words that I will tell you"
"Trying to keep an eye on you" - "I want to see you all the time (when i wake up, when i go to sleep)"
"Like a hurt lost and blinded fool, fool" - Hurt. Lost. Blinded. I'm the fool.
"Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up"
"Consider this
Consider this
The hint of the century" - She seems not even to take into consideration what i told her. To me it's something grand (the word "century" says it's importance).
"Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed" - Not even the fact that now i'm "failed" on my "knees" is taken into consideration.
"What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around" - I still can't get her out of my mind.
"Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try"

"But that was just a dream
That was just a dream" - To me seems like "I've been dreaming and I can go back to how it was before"

(repeat chorus)

"But that was just a dream"
"Try, cry, why try?" - I tried. I got hurt. Why try gain?
"That was just a dream
Just a dream, just a dream
Dream"

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And 4 days after that 14 Feb day thing i went out with her and somewhere along the line we kissed. it was... Good... Interesting... And confusing the next morning when i thought about it.

And I was just announced that by that very person (witch has read this post just hours after I posted it) that she was not actually avoiding me... She wanted to do me a good since she told me she can't be with anyone (I am in that group as well) she didn't want me to suffer seeing her. HURT ME! HURT ME!

"There she goes again"...

And to end this post I will also mention the title and theme of the next post :D.
"REM -Everybody Hurts". A song that helps...

...Wow, this post got long...